Tuesday, February 22, 2011

After the Fall

Tubac, originally uploaded by Roberta Warshaw.

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts regarding my fall yesterday. I seem to have dodged a bullet. Nothing is broken or sprained. Just some black and blue marks forming. I consider myself very lucky, I really do. A friend of mine in California fell off her bike and broke her leg. She is still in rehab with 2 small children at home. So, yes, it could have been so much worse.

As far as the mental damage, that still lingers. It was bad enough to have to return to the freezing cold from Tucson. But then to fall on the ice...... It is hard to bear.

Both my husband and I want to retire to Tucson. Either for the winters or for the entire year. We are not sure yet. We would need to see how we do in the heat of the summer there. I know summers there are hot but I did live in Florida year round where it was both hot and humid. I never even had AC. Just ceiling fans. And I was fine. But of course I was much younger.

The thing for me is that retirement cannot come soon enough. Of course I don’t want to be that old. But as soon as I turned 60 last year, I noticed that I began to think about it more and more. It is weird to be at the end of a career. It is bittersweet. I am now the oldest person in my department. That doesn’t feel good at all. I remember how much I used to love coming to work and getting the chance to be so creative. Now I really have to force myself out of bed in the morning. And with many of my friends already retired or in the process of retiring, it gets even harder to keep working.

In China they make their citizens retire at age 55 in order to make room for the younger workers. In France they just raised the retirement age to 62.

Of course in this country they would rather see us work until we die.

I don’t know. I just feel very adrift right now. Neither here nor there so to speak. I even tried beading my March piece last night but couldn’t look at it. For me March is one of the worst months. It looks like spring on the calendar but between the wind and the cold it is anything but that. Maybe I’ll try working on a different month and come back to March later.


Unknown said...

so beautiful!

Robbie said...

Hang in there! I was lucky enough to retire @ 55! It's wonderful!! And AZ is great even in the summer. I'd move there in a heatbeat..Florida is ok in the winter (Ocala better than Miami!) but AZ is the best. My friend lives there now full time and lovin' it! Heck, you stay in during the winter months (ok, leave to go to work nd slip and fall!) so not different in the summer in warmer states..you just say in the air conditioning!

Judy Martin said...

It sounds as if you are having a let down after your time away.
Your mood and attitude will return to normal in a few days - I hope that your leg does as well.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad had no major damage when you fell!

After about 25 years in Arizona those hot summers finally got to me. Now the way this winter has been going, I'm beginning to wonder about that too. I really think that wintering in the desert and spending the rest of the year in a cooler climate would be ideal. I have friends who have a summer home in northern Arizona and live in the Phoenix area the rest or the year: they love that!

Val said...

Sorry about your injury (I've been offline a few days or would have commented before), and I hope you're starting to feel better moodwise.