Sunday, December 24, 2017


Trilogy #7
In exactly 8 days it will be 2018. This will be the year that I finally get my life back. It seems so hard to believe after 18 years of anything but that.

I am out in Arizona now and I am staying for the month of January. I plan to use this time to recover, heal, make some new art and mostly just be. I will see what it is like to only have to care for myself. I will see what it is like to only have to cook for myself.  These are all things that many of my friends take for granted. I will never take these things for granted. Ever.

We both arrived Friday. We left a day early due to the big ice storm that hit Boston. We wanted to get out before it hit. We were glad we did even though it cost us so much extra to change the tickets. I will be so glad when I don't have to fly so much anymore. Especially in winter. The trip out here is becoming more and more difficult for me physically. In fact, my leg went numb for the entire day yesterday and I was quite worried that I had a clot or something. But it is much better today thankfully.

When I am finally living out here permanently in June, I will be sure to only visit the east coast during the summer months. I will never  have to travel on school vacation ever again.

I shipped out 13 boxes of art supplies before I left Boston. I paid an extra 30 dollars to have UPS come and pick them up as they were quite heavy. They are due to arrive on Friday, December 29th. So far so good. I am tracking their progress and they are currently in Illinois. I love being able to track packages and know exactly when they will be delivered.

My first few days whenever I arrive are always spent just absorbing my home. Walking around, touching things. Making sure they are real and that it is not a dream. When I am back in Boston I sometimes feel that this is just a dream. And that I will never get here. At my age you can't take anything for granted.

It is funny, but, many people do not understand why we love it here so much. My answer is, I don't really know. Yes, summer is unbearable. No, there isn't much rain. Yes, it is mostly brown with olive greens. Yes, there are scorpions, rattlesnakes, tarantulas, mountain lions, etc.

But love it I do. I hope to live out the rest of my life here.

Sunday, December 10, 2017


Trilogy #1

Trilogy #2
After so many years of painting (over 40 now), you would think that I had heard of most everything painting related. But that is not the case. I recently learned of a man named Anders Zorn (look him up). He developed a palette which has been named after him called the Zorn Palette.

What is the Zorn Palette you might ask? Well, it consists of only 4 colors. Well three really plus white. The colors are Yellow Ochre, Ivory Black, Cadmium Red light and Titanium White. I didn't have Ivory Black though. Apparently Golden Paints does on carry that color in their line. I will look around to see if another company makes it in acrylic. So I used Carbon Black instead. Unfortunately with other blacks you do not get the blue hue that you get from mixing Ivory Black with White. So I need to find that color.

Anders Zorn mostly painted portraits and his colors were very subdued due to the subject matter. I am quite interested in this palette for more abstracted works. The ones you see above were done entirely in the Zorn Palette. I love the way the colors all work together. They are both intense and subtle without being too colorful. I am feeling quite resistant lately to too much color. I am finding it confusing and I am not too sure what that is all about. I will follow it though since I an finding it interesting and inspiring.

On another note, it snowed here yesterday. I really am not happy when it snows. I find it difficult navigating the city sidewalks and I am always afraid of falling. So I don't go out as much as I should. Looking forward to Arizona where there is no snow.

Thursday, December 7, 2017


The Short Night
This week we hit a milestone. My grandson turned 18. Nothing much changes quite yet but it is still huge for me. It means I am no longer his legal guardian. I can now go back to being just a grandmother.  I can leave if I want to. I can move. Of course I won't until he graduates. But still. I am leaving for a month in January. That will be good for him. He needs to learn to live without me always being there and doing everything for him.

Yesterday we went to the bank and set him up with his own accounts. That was pretty huge. I will no longer have to be responsible for his money.

I will continue to keep him on my cell phone account and if he needs any financial help I can help a little. In other words, I am not just throwing him to the wind. I will have his back until he no longer needs my help.

I am looking forward to being out in Arizona for the entire month of January. It will make the winter not seem so relentless. I am going to see an old friend who is coming to visit me there. She retired many years ago to Colorado and we haven't seen each other in a very long time. I am looking forward to that!

Also, my aunt from CA and my cousin are coming out to see me as well. I expect to do some artwork, and continue setting up my studio out there.

It will be really nice to have that time all to myself. When you have a spouse and you are raising children or a grandchild, there isn't much time alone. As an artist I crave it. I have to steal the time to paint in between grocery shopping, meal prep, etc. I am always cooking but I don't always enjoy it. I would much rather be in my studio painting.