Friday, March 30, 2018

3/30/18


It appears that I have found something I can do even when all my art supplies are packed away. I found a lovely little class on making mandalas which fits the bill nicely. I am working on copy paper, with 3 pens, one pencil, a compass, a protractor and a ruler. Talk about limited supplies!

But it goes well with my new found meditation class and Tai Chi class. Quiet and calming which I very much need now.

Next weekend is our Open House for the condo. I want to be excited and happy but as long as I don't know where my grandson is going to live, I am not going to feel good. I will have to live with that for a while longer I guess.

There is a lot of guilt associated with a move of this distance. Leaving him behind, leaving my elderly mom behind, leaving my son and his family behind. I know I can come visit whenever I want. But there is still a certain amount of upheaval involved. We have waited so long to make this move.

Almost too long.


5 comments:

Robbie said...

It will be hard to leave family but you need to be happy in your life as well. I am sure your grandson will mature quickly. Take care....

Aimeslee W. said...

And a beautiful mandala it is! Mentally, I am so close to where you are. My hubby turns 66 next month and was going to retire June 30, after wanting to retire at 59 and realizing it was better to keep working so he took it a year at a time. We thought we could find our forever home after he retires, but turns out our assets don't count but a paycheck does when it comes to a new mortgage. So it's sinking in he may have to keep working until we know our new address, and the aftermath of Harvey down here makes house-hunting a nightmare. Plus his mom, my dad, our siblings all live here, but we'd love to try living in the Texas Hill Country. Seems like I've been stuck on stupid and marching in place for so so long... Now stuff is beginning to happen and I am frozen, afraid of making decisions. Great good luck with the Open House and Easter Blessings! xoxo

Carol- Beads and Birds said...

Mandela are almost mesmerizing.

We have lived all our lives by what is best for my daughter, then for my grandson. They leave you behind eventually. You are not the center of THEIR world and it's hard to realize that they will make their own way without you. Please, don't feel guilt. Move on cheerfully to what you have been waiting to do for so long. In the tick of time, there's not much left.

Much Love. Happy Easter
xx, Carol

Gina said...

It will be hard but it is important that ultimately you do what is best for you. We are in the process of thinking about moving and have the same thoughts about moving away from my mum, who only recently moved to be near us ( without any consultation with us!)

Jocelyn Thurston said...

Just read your recent posts, Roberta, and must say, I am envious of your talent. Love those petals over your coloured blocks.
Tai Chi sounds like it is working for you in more ways than one which is wonderful. Moving can be stressful on so many levels. Good luck!